Have you had lingering guilt creep in and get in the way of a friendship reunion? Tracy Teare has, as she explains to her friend Amy in “Something Borrowed, Something Blue…”
“Meeting up with you recently, after not seeing you for ten years, made me feel like I was zooming back in time to high school–minus the stress of exams, boys, and zits. It was a rare treat to share the stories, triumphs, and tragedies that have filled in the years since our last reunion. After all, phone calls and emails are no substitute for chatting late into the night, over coffee, over brunch, in and out of dressing rooms, and through museums. But for me, the laughs and heart-to-hearts stirred up guilty pain too. I mean, who else remembers the name of my first dog and understood how much I loved horses? Or the times our Bruce Springsteen-loving social studies teacher got so fed up with our fits of laughter that he kicked us out of American History? Who else sacrificed her beloved burnt-orange VW Rabbit so I could learn to grind–er, drive–a stick shift? Who else included me in her plans every weekend, even though she almost always had a steady boyfriend and I didn’t? Who else knew how to camouflage not only zits, but a body wave gone poodle? Who else still called me Trixie? All of this makes me feel as low as a street gutter for two big mistakes that I can never undo and will forever regret…strike one was missing your wedding, and strike two was far worse…”
TRACY TEARE is a freelance writer hailing from the Maine coast, near the city of Portland. Writing about friendship was a welcome change up from her usual fare: mainly fitness and parenting, with some health and travel for good measure. Tracy’s work has been published in a number of magazines, such as Real Simple, Health, Prevention, Fit Pregnancy, Wondertime, and Family Fun. She is also a regular contributor to Disney’s family.com, where (much to her girls’ dismay) she records many of her parenting adventures, as well as tips on favorite New England destinations. Tracy has also written extensively about walking and has contributed to two books–Walking through Pregnancy and Pedometer Walking–with walking guru Mark Fenton. Tracy also contributed essays to Seal Press’s Woman’s Best Friend: Women Writers on the Dogs in Their Lives and Cat Women: Female Writers on Their Feline Friends. Though Tracy’s family of three daughters keeps her hopping, she vows not to let so many years roll by before she sees her buddies from high school (especially Amy) again.
Read the rest of Tracy’s letter, and 35 others, in P.S. What I Didn’t Say: Unsent Letters to Our Female Friends, now available on Amazon and at bookstores nationwide!